Hello, sweet friends! Today I want to share a little update with you on our infertility process and a little good news during the wait for baby.
It’s another blog hop day with Jackie, Liz, Shanna and Jessica! The theme this month is “what I accomplished in May.” It’s kind of a wild card month to share any kind of diy or big projects we’ve been working on. Please follow the links in gold to see what they’ve been up to and get inspired for lots of fun diys!
Me? Well, I got nothin’! To be honest with y’all, I’ve been stumped on what to write. I haven’t done any cool projects or a room refresh or even decorated anything lately. My decor is still decorated for Spring and my house is somewhat clean-ish. There’s a list of projects to do that I haven’t started yet! But I promise I’ll be back sharing diys and decor very soon!
I quit my job in the late Spring to pursue my blog full time. Mr. Sweet Southern Oaks has been my biggest cheerleader encouraging me to pursue my passion and follow my heart to be a full time content creator.
Right now though, I feel like I may have let him down. Because the plan I had on blogging each day….well, it hasn’t gone as planned. Our infertility journey has quite literally been all I can focus on at the moment and to be honest with y’all, it takes it toll somedays. I’ve had days where I’m super productive and I don’t even think about it and other days where I’m feeling low. But this is the season we’re in right now. Walking through a valley waiting and waiting and waiting some more on meeting our baby.
What did I accomplish in May?
It really doesn’t sound like much, but what I did accomplish was actually a big deal! We finally got in to see our fertility doctor and make a plan for meeting our baby! That was truly a blessing and God had His hand over this appointment and getting us in earlier to the fertility clinic.
When we were first referred to the fertility doctor, it was a big hurdle in itself. With military healthcare, we each needed a referral to the fertility clinic. Mr. Sweet Southern Oaks literally had to go see two doctors before he even got his referral to the clinic. The first one dropped the ball with the referral and we waited almost two weeks for them to do something. By the time they finally did anything, we had already fired them as our doctor.
His doctor’s office didn’t seem to care. But we did. With each day that passed, it was another day further away from meeting our baby.
Feeling Defeated
So by the first Friday in May, we both felt really defeated. Weeks had gone by with us trying to make progress and nothing was happening. 😭 By that Friday, I was literally ready to chew out the next person that gave us the run around because Aunt Flo had come again. Only his doctor’s office had closed early for the weekend and I was mad as a hornet by that point!
So we called our insurance again and he got another doctor. I know it sounds weird, but we have to use pre-approved doctors that take military healthcare. It’s good for some things, but when time is of the essence like this, it’s not so great.
Progress – Finally! 🎉
The next doctor was a blessing and sent what they needed to the same day. He came home with a big packet of paperwork for us to fill stuff out for the fertility clinic and I literally cried. We went to the beach that weekend and I stayed off social media for awhile with it being Mother’s Day.
We sat at the kitchen table of our beach condo on a rainy day and filled out all of the paperwork for the clinic. Then we were finally able to make an appointment with the clinic of our choice. At first, our appointment wasn’t going to be until mid July. When you’re going through infertility, this wait time seems like forever.
More waiting.
The waiting is excruciatingly hard. And it gets harder every month.
Things are Falling Into Place
But later that day at the beach, I got a text that changed everything. 🌈 There was a cancellation and we could get in the following week and a half. I know someone that works at the clinic we chose, and I know she played a huge part in getting us in earlier. I’m forever grateful for her help in all of this.
Getting into the fertility clinic even earlier was an answer to our prayers. I know that God made that way for us and I know that He has the perfect baby to send us in His timing. It’s hard to believe somedays, but I know that He put the desire in our hearts for this baby and He will continue to provide our path. Making that way for us was His way of telling me that He’s got this and good things are to come.
We left the beach with peace and renewed hope as things began to fall into place for us on our infertility journey.
Our First Appointment at the Fertility Clinic
Our first appointment went great. It was a long and exhausting day though! Mr. Sweet Southern Oaks’ numbers were good and everything looks okay for me right now. So no real answers on why we’re going through infertility yet. I have to go back in to get my baseline checked whenever my next menstrual cycle starts.
Starting the Infertility Treatments
After that, we should hopefully begin starting treatments! 🧡 They want to start us out on Letrozole and three rounds of IUI. I am ovulating already, but the Letrozole will help increase the chances of conceiving by growing more follicles and increase the quality of the eggs that are released.
The IUI is artificial insemination. They’ll take his sperm and put it inside me. Sometimes it doesn’t go all the way up, and people just need a little help. That’s okay and the IUI will help with that. Usually, it doesn’t take on the first round for whatever reason, which is why my fertility doctor wants us to do three rounds of IUI. If none of the IUIs take, the next step would be IVF.
For now, we are going through the grieving process:
Grieving for the loss of being able to surprise family and friends that we’re pregnant.
Angry that we want a baby so much and can’t get pregnant while there are teenagers that have unplanned pregnancies.
Grieving for what could have been when I start my menstrual cycle each month.
Grieving for the loss of innocence trying to start a family.
Scared of the unknown and not knowing when or if it’ll even happen for us.
Feeling like I’m going to be the old mom now and feeling behind.
Scared that I may not even get to meet my future grandchildren.
Holding back tears when I see my husband play with my nephews because he is so good with them and he deserves to be a dad.
Angry that I haven’t been able to give him a baby and wondering if I ever will.
Scrolling really quick whenever someone shares baby pictures or an announcement. Then having to get off the social media app for days after to protect your mental health.
Yep, going through all of the stages of grief during infertility.
This was not part of the plan.
Hopeful
Not going to lie, all of this infertility stuff and what is to come is terrifying to me. I am excited and hopeful on meeting our precious miracle baby in 2022 (hopefully!) and someday all of this will all be worth it. We’re hopeful of what’s to come and even on the hard days, we have to believe that one day we will meet our baby. Sometimes that hope is small, but it’s still there.
Just a reminder, if you’re going through infertility, you’re not alone. Please feel free to reach out to me on social media and chat! I am here for you and I am hopeful and praying for us all to get our precious miracle babies.
Read more about Our Hope in the Wait: Our Infertility Journey
Let’s See What My Friends Accomplished in May:
Jackie at Jackie Can’t Blog
Liz at Living with Liz
Liz is sharing her Six Month Bathroom Reno.
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